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 i feel like coming undone, stephen!
nadia snow
 Posted: Feb 13 2018, 12:05 AM
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You pick me up and take me home again Head out the window again We're hollow like the bottles that we drain You drape your wrists over the steering wheel Pulses can drive from here We might be hollow, but we're brave
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Drink up your movements, still I can't get enough

Nadia was fine! She was! She had only had one glass... or was it two? Maybe three if you counted the first one... of something, she had forgotten quite what it was. She knew Stephen wouldn't notice, she was a wonderful actress, of course! She knew she shouldn't have done it, but not drinking was remarkably hard and she'd just thought it would calm her nerves. After all, having to go on a date where she couldn't drink seemed like a lot, and frankly, what if he didn't like her company when she was a sober, slightly anxious mess? What if he just didn't like her sober at all? She knew he had been helping her very patiently, but that hardly meant talking about anything important when it mostly revolved around the fact she drank too much. On a date she had to make actual conversation, and she had to do so without a safety net. No one could fault anything she said when she drank, because after all, she was just drunk! Now, what came out of her mouth was simply who she was, and she'd never particularly been fond of that.

She felt better now that she'd had something to drink, a relief had spread through her. She'd had another one because it had felt so good, and then a third once she'd realised Stephen was going to be upset with her. She didn't want to lose him, but she felt it might be an inevitability. Either he was going to get tired of her failures, or he would see her for what she truly was, and she enjoyed neither outcome. A terrible part of her was ready to destroy their relationship herself if it spared her the fact he would leave her anyway. In a way, this was part of that.

She'd shown up a few minutes late, admittedly because she'd almost considered cancelling. No, though, she could act her way through it and he would never notice. Besides, he'd booked a wonderful boat trip for the two of them and she would hate to leave him alone on a boat of all things. When she finally stepped on, giving him a bright smile and a kiss on the cheek. "I'm rather glad you didn't leave without me, navigating around the lives of other people is so awfully hard this time of day," She lied easily, realising all too late she shouldn't have gotten too close to him, but perhaps he hadn't noticed!

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stephen knight
 Posted: Feb 18 2018, 12:30 AM
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Another head aches, another heart breaks I am so much older than I can take And my affection, well it comes and goes I need direction to perfection, no no no no Help me out
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It’s a privilege to be loved by you.
Stephen wasn’t big on celebrating Valentine’s day, specifically, so it was safe to say Nadia was bringing it out of him, but after all, he had a girlfriend and they were romantics, so they fulfilled all of the requirements to celebrate the holiday. They might have had a few struggles since Christmas, but this was sort of the nature of relationships, and he didn’t give up because of a minor setback- not that excessive drinking struck him as a minor setback but he liked Nadia enough to want this to work very much and that made him rather more willing to keep at it. Anyway, she had done well enough recently. They didn’t spend every evening together or anything and he definitely still got some texts where he was suspicious of her level of inebriation when she sent them, but when they were together, she seemed to respect the fact he was not comfortable with alcohol being present with them. It had had a good effect on him; less drinking meant that his numbers weren’t messing up as much as they had before.

He had arrived on time at the boat ride they were supposed to take which, while it featured no alcohol, still featured a nice view of London and a good callback to how they’d met. Nadia, however, was late, which wasn’t like her, not when it came to them being together. She certainly wouldn’t keep him waiting, because it just didn’t strike as something she would like to do, but, still, he waited, looking a little confused at this turn of events. Fortunately, she turned up eventually, not horrendously late, and he brightened up immediately. “Hello, stranger,” he greeted, as he did tend to when they met up at date locations (as opposed to travelling there together). He’d held out a hand to help her onto the boat, about to tell that he quite appreciated this ensemble on her, when she stepped closer and, in any other circumstance, he would quite like a kiss on the cheek, being a traditionalist. Except this time, he was sure he smelt wine. “Have you been drinking again?”

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nadia snow
 Posted: Apr 7 2018, 10:22 PM
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You pick me up and take me home again Head out the window again We're hollow like the bottles that we drain You drape your wrists over the steering wheel Pulses can drive from here We might be hollow, but we're brave
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22 YEARS OLD
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hannah
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Drink up your movements, still I can't get enough

Nadia liked the way he looked at her when he first saw her, she liked the way he greeted her and helped her onto the boat, she liked the way he looked so sweet and kind, and that he only proved that to be true more every time they met. She wanted things to go well so much that it seemed the only way was to ruin it all, because it could never be this nice forever, not when she was the way she was. She wanted to hold onto his hand a little longer though, to linger a little more at his cheek, to talk to him forever and ever, but she knew it wasn't meant to be, after all. She knew even if she could keep her drinking a secret this time, then it would only be next time he realised, or the time after, and how could he possibly want to stick around?

She seated herself in the boat as gracefully as she could, quite used to moving around difficult situations whilst tipsy, so fortunately it wasn't too obvious, at least she thought it wasn't until he said something. Nadia's stomach suddenly felt in knots, and she stared at him for just a second too long in surprise, before she smiled at him, and shook her head. "No, why do you say that?" She asked, wanting to know the giveaway so she could at the very least try to make some sort of excuse, perhaps try to keep him long enough to enjoy a date together.

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stephen knight
 Posted: May 27 2018, 07:54 PM
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Another head aches, another heart breaks I am so much older than I can take And my affection, well it comes and goes I need direction to perfection, no no no no Help me out
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26 YEARS OLD
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jade
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It’s a privilege to be loved by you.
Stephen didn’t want to ruin the date before it had even started. Nadia had only just arrived and he was already saying things that were going to no doubt turn the night south- but at the same time, he didn’t think he could ignore the obvious when it was right there. It would be terrible of him to set a precedent that Nadia was free to drink around him whenever there was a special occasion… but it was a special occasion and he had wanted to have a nice evening with her without thinking of any of their general stressors. There had certainly been none of this when they’d met.

In the end, morality won out and he sat down, but he didn’t look too happy about it. “I can smell it on you,” he sighed, sure that she might use this knowledge in the future to make sure he didn’t spot it again, but he at least had to explain how he knew that she wasn’t entirely sober. He wasn’t sure she cared either. “Was there any reason for it?” he added, although he was already sure he wouldn’t accept any- he didn’t think any reasoning was valid as to why she couldn’t drink just for one day.

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